it hit! and it hit hard! but I knew it was coming! but I took no precautions! It hit surprisingly hard! It was going to hit anyway, I knew that – did I really? – Weird how things work…or don’t
Big questions arise now. It this whole shit worth it? I’m starting to doubt it. Is losing so much worth it? This is battlefield major loss #2. How many beatings should I take before I realize the tactic isn’t leading anywhere?
Maybe I should forget about the battlefield. Maybe workaholism isn’t such a bad idea. A retreat, something to make you so tired and stressed and busy that you don’t feel time passing by. For now, this will probably be the winning strategy. Or maybe going on alternate battlefields and practicing with smaller battles.
Why the fuck should I care anymore?